Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Conspiracy Theory

Business. Creative work. Parenting. Personal life. There is so much I want and need to do in each of these areas. At times the weight of it all feels crippling.

Then I remember an undeniable truth: the Universe is always conspiring to do me good. For evidence of this truth, I do not have to look far. My recent healing is proof beyond a reasonable doubt.

Yet there are still times I look at my to-do list and I am overwhelmed. I begin to think about how I should have completed some of the tasks long before or how I should have more resources to get done what is on the list. I think to myself,
"I should do more, be more, have more."

Then I remember something I heard Iyanla Vanzant say, "Never should on yourself."

Recently I had an epiphany about my work as a writer versus my work as a storyteller. Writing is so cerebral to me. Writing gets me inside my head. It's mind-work. If my mind is busy, unsettled, writing clears out the clutter.

Storytelling is different. Storytelling gets me inside my heart. Storytelling is Spirit-work. If my spirit needs lifting, storytelling gives me the elevation I need.

Writing and storytelling are essential to my wholeness. One no more important than the other. Yet it is essential that I have a good balance of both in order to prevent feeling overwhelmed by that infamous to-do list.

BOTH writing and storytelling are ever-present reminders that the Universe is conspiring on my behalf, every minute of every day.

Now I better get back to that long to do list!

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sometimes I think you make things more complicated than they need to be. Stop overthinking. No matter how much you read or meditate, etc, the bottom line is, much of parenting (and Life) is going on instinct and what you know to be true at this point in time. And that is important. Often one of my girls will mention something I told them, showed them, intructed them in, etc. and I have completely forgotten the incident. But it was the right thing for that time in their life. So go on girl, relax, you are better at this than you think.

T. Dorsey said...
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Anonymous said...

This is a very important finding. It is also extremely important to tell it to
the world.

Everyone should find balance in their life, which leads to peace. Just imagine a
world of people with inner peace.

It is also very important to tell the world about what keeps you happy. So friends, family, and peers will know your recipe for peace of mind. I am grateful you are who you are. I am grateful you are not afraid

Brother Taquaan Bashier El-Amin

Anonymous said...

Trae,

Your writing is wonderful. Keep up all the great work you are doing inthe world. Your light shines and heals us all.

Blessings to you my friend.

Much Love,

GG

Anonymous said...

Definetly njoyed this !

Deb